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..on my "dirty little secret", I talked about the source of confidence the the possible reason that might decrease our confidence.

Having unstable confidence is pretty normal, but I think what's pretty important is the find our own source of confidence. Well, actually I've been in HELP for over a year now, I should be getting used to the environment and the people now.

It's true that well, there isn't as many friends as I used to have back in Taylors or in high school, but important thing is I've got a few close friends to hang out with, to makan with, to laugh about things together and to be serious with. And that we have to understand that friends have other friends, it's not that they only have you as friends, some people will get really insecured and unhappy when their friends started hanging out with other friends! I used to think that way though. But I now understand that well, they have their life, just as how WE have our own life to live.

So yeah, being alone doesn't mean you're actually alone. You have to feel full yourself because nobody can actually make you feel good about yourself! Right?

It's like, a happily dating couple. Although they love each other truly, doesn't mean they'll have to be with you physically 24/7 and 365 days. They hang out with their friends once in a while, catching up and doing things they enjoy together, it's all part of a healthy friendship. Being an insecured bf/gf means you're calling your partner constantly when they're out, demanding the attention from them and keep asking them what time they'll be back and all.

It's alright to text them, but of course we'll have to understand that when they're out with friends and all, their full attention is just not only YOU la.

I used to be very confused about this because I always think I give 100% attention to my bf, but seriously when i'm out with friends having a good time, I totally understand why the attention to them decrease and therefore when my bf's out I won't demand so much from him anymore.

It takes initiative and certain level of willingness to learn to be a better partner! Because we can't expect others to always be understanding towards our OWN emotions right? Just because we don't feel good, we don't have to make others' life a misery too right?

Well if you know what I mean.

Confidence is a big part of our live, it just determine our personality and the way we act. Some people just like to humiliate others to make themselves feel better. Hope you're not the one.

It is easy to say i know, but practising what we preach is another thing :)

Hope ya enjoy reading!! *wink* good day~!